Open to Life

I need to remind myself that life holds endless possibilities. When one door closes, another opens. Very often, I lose sight of that, I sit by the door that has closed and I wallow in regret, all the time not noticing the door that has opened and is welcoming me towards it.

I have to acknowledge that this door has probably closed, as much as I wished for it to open. I seem to be forever trapped in a cycle of negativity that I'm unable to break out of. This has been a huge problem, with Weiling and now with Sarah.

Watching How I Met Your Mother does help. I feel like I'm like Ted, with his romantic gestures, his wonderful notion of true love and how devoted he is to finding it. His break up with Robin and being left at the altar by Stella were huge. They were so huge that it probably could have left him permanently scarred and never able to trust again. However, he still did manage to retain his hope that he will still find his true love.

I need that kind of attitude. There is someone out there for me who will be perfect for me and I will find her. I don't have to settle. At the same time, I shouldn't get so hung up on my failures. Getting stuck in the past will always affect the future. I will have to learn to let go and embrace the future, to be open to the many wondrous possibilities that life would bring.