it really is over

Well, Weiling confirmed it for me, that she likes this other guy now. I think it's always been a feeling that she had and she has come to accept it now.

I don't really know what I feel. I feel sort of numbed now, like reality has yet to sink in. I'm disappointed in myself for not being able to have been the guy right for her when I had my chance. Now the chance is with someone else.

I only want the best for her, and I will need to take the painful step of trying to stay away. Nothing sucks more than having an ex around causing insecurity to that guy now. I respect her and I want her to find happiness. I hope she does.

Xiaohan said that for someone to be the perfect one, there needs to be 3 elements - person, timing, place. For us, it was that timing wasn't right. So, I guess it is a part of fate that we can't be together.

I really need to stop thinking about her being with that guy, it breaks my heart so.