Happiness eludes

The only happiness I feel these days is when I get to chat with Weiling online. When I chat with her, it feels as if we're back together, chatting normally as before. Though sometimes, it strikes me that we're still not together.

I miss her so much. I dread to think of the day she'll be flying off to Manchester for exchange. Will I still be able to chat with her? Will I still be able to show her the care and concern that I want to? I fear that we will drift apart.

I wonder if I'll get the chance to send her off at the airport. Will she let me embrace her? And if she does, will I cry, and can I bear to let go?

I think I'm slowly slipping into the abyss of depression. Life is bland and there is absolutely nothing I look forward to in the near future. I know it's a long road, will it be my mind giving way first before I can succeed?