and..the end..

Well, I guess things turned out the way I had thought it would. After much debating on whether I should continue going after her or not, I finally settled on putting an end to the episode. The decision didn't come easy though, but I thought that this would be a better solution than waiting for something that would never happen. She had made it very clear the other day, that she'd convince me that she wasn't the right girl for me. Honestly, she hasn't achieved that. But I just felt that I was too tired to continue waiting on. Waiting without a definite result. I don't know what's going to happen in future. But, it definitely didn't seem like we were going anywhere. From how she was previously, I was getting mixed signals and I didn't know which to take in. Was she finally able to accept me, or was she trying but was unable to, or did I just get this whole thing wrong?

The confusion just ate away. I ate and ate and ate until there was nothing left to eat. I'm not sure how she took this news after reading the card with the present. Just saying that it was the best present she had received this year, well, I don't know how she saw it. Did I see relief in her message? Maybe. Disappointment? Probably not.

I guess this is the right decision. It has to be.