An unexpected shock

Today, while traveling on the bus home with my friend after giving a briefing, we started talking about courses that we were bidding for next term. I found out then, that he would be in the same Corporate Reporting class as I was, and what's even better, she'll be in the same group as him. It was kind of a shock to me and my jaw literally dropped. Thoughts like how I was going to face her just flooded my mind. I really didn't know why I had this kind of extreme reaction even at this point of time. Saying that I could treat her as a normal friend those weeks ago, could it really happen?

Should I force something I won't be happy about on myself? Can I really hide behind the excuse that everything is okay as long as she's happy? Do I not deserve that happiness?

Today's show struck me with a thought that came across my mind previously. Once you experience happiness, you will fear losing it.