i can't help but feel confused. keep wondering what i should do, how i should do, about my future. we shape our own futures. but how do u even shape it when u don't know what u want. damn. i don't know what i want. or rather, i know what i want but i don't know how i'm gonna get it or even whether i can get it.

should i keep going for this?

today's lunch was with shu-en at ghim moh again. think going there for lunch is a pretty good excuse to just go out with friends since it's the food centre closest to nuh! hahaa. but i still can't really step into orchard or any shopping centre. that's the biggest giveaway and the most incriminating evidence(haha but i did on monday).

had a great chat today. seems like a really long time since we had a chat of this nature. yeah. well, just gotta call her more often now. or maybe not. since she has prelims just round the corner. hahaa..she got pretty angry with me..for telling her something but not completely. yeah..i shouldn't do it next time. but now all's fine. it was cleared up on the phone..just.

oh yeah. recalling what serine said last time, i do believe that a guy and a girl can be really really close friends. but i think this isn't true for all people. it greatly depends on the characters and personalities of both the guy and girl. i don't know. but yeah. i've some really great friends like shu-en, cassandra and others. people who are honest, who care about you, who listen, who loves you for who you are.

maybe i'm naive. haha..but i'm happy being this way.