Last night was pretty eventful. I decided that I should end this impasse once and for all. So I messaged Serine telling her that I'd really like to be friends since we can't be in a relationship and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. Yeah, she took 12 hours to reply. But that's it. I guess my decision is the right one. At least we can still continue being friends. I'm not sure if i can just stop liking her. But at the very least, I've to show that. Or else, things will just become bad again.

This is the last time I'll really really like someone. Things just aren't meant to be for me. I guess for the next 5 years or so, I'll just concentrate on my studies and sports and nothing else. Most people probably see me as just a good friend. That spark will always just be missing. Can I hold true to this promise to myself? To not fall for anyone else within this 5 year frame of time? I can't guarantee it, but I certainly hope it will be so. Nothing good ever comes out of relationships anyway.

Anyway, I guess i'm pretty alright now. The sadness is more or less gone, due to things being more certain now. I can't live with uncertainty. Life feels out of control that way. Probably i'll get over my feelings for Serine. But still, it will never change the fact that I loved her for a moment in time.

Woke up to watch Man Utd against Liverpool last night. The first half was vintage Man Utd. Dominance translated into goal scoring opportunities. Wasted ones. I was afraid that not being able to score would come back to haunt the team. But luckily after the own goal, Man Utd were able to recover and score another set piece, the second goal for Mikael Silvestre. Fantastic stuff indeed. I hope the old Man Utd is back and here to stay.

I am now alright. I really am.